no intention of sounding depressing, but i have been busy being depressed. not really angry at her just angry at shit. various shits. shits amounting to wondering if there is indeed no purpose to life and love is a complete illusion. unacted desires wish their way into your words, cloud your vision like a bottle of cheap whisky and leaves you in the morning with the same pain in your gut. but you know it will wear off. ahh. the terrors of the mind, and the minds of other people.
It would be a lie to say that getting older is not helping my outlook on death, but my appeal to women may decline. spent my youth wandering looking for god, scared i'll spend my old age lookin for babes. boredom and monotony are insidious. foes that love inertia. my life seems to lean inert.
the thesis is pretty much done. thats why I have a lot of time on my hands. need to be making resume etc. i need to find out the meaning of life first though.
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This blog deals with my thoughts, and thoughts about my thoughts, regarding a range of subjects but primarily aspects of Saivism, Vaisnavism, Tantra, Yoga, and intersections of various limbs of Indic knowledge, interspersed with bizarre sounding rants, personal tragedies, elation, pseudo or genuine realizations or ignorant brief comments.
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