weird dream

had a weird dream last night. in a diner somewhere, it was fairly crowded. I am me, long hair in ponytail, button up checkered shirt. Some mexicans came in (I thought in the dream they were Mexican). I give one of them , in a cowboy hat. I take half a notice but while he was kind of strecting over or something his shirt rides up and I happen to see a semiauto pistol tucked in jeans, like one of those shitty S&W 9s. He notices that I noticed, and I have the clear thought "I'm about to die" unarmed , but even if I was the guy was way ahead of where I would want to be. He pops me in the neck. Thats the last. I actually thought the name Krishna but then thought , as I was waking coming back to my senses, then remembered, wow I am conscious! I have thought died. In a sense the terror was the same. the mind creating like the elements create.

Earlier in the night I went through some kind of intense internal psychic dialog with myself during sleep. I did not drink. well I drank a beer. which is much less than usual. unfortunately. My sleep was light. smoked 3-4 bong hits around 7:30 pm. went to bed a little after 10. Its not really about eradicating badness or negativity but about going forward