why

why are humans such slow learners? I keep thinking of that old man yesterday, trying very hard to convince me that I am not happy. How strange! A normal person would be happy for me. Poor man. Later, I realized I allowed the guy to approach me and listened to his spiel because he was old, white beard, looked like he could have possible learned a thing or two in life, but no. He was a confused soul in an old body. Why do we humans have to learn the hard way? Ultimately because we have the power in life to do exactly what we want; although we can never make the unreal real. That, I believe is the catch. We can choose to believe and live as we want I think, yet we are always bound by the consequences of our choices. So many people profess the desire for liberation, but to them it is just another form of mind/ego enjoyment, so it remains elusive. I am no exception, I can honestly say, perhaps only in the last few months, that I don't really want mukti, that is, I have not destroyed the fear of the loss of my mundane perception of my own identity, even though it keeps me fluctuating between happiness and misery. At least I can admit that now, and clearly see the ties that bind, and I know, with certainty, only I can cut them, and they will only be cut when nature takes its course.