I was able to find this blog again on Gaudiya repercussions. The site itself, strangely, expired a few days later. It seems the domain may not be renewed. I was glad to find this blog and the other as I was able to go over my mental conditions over quite a long period, since 2005. The blogs entries are not detailed but it only takes a few lines to recollect the gist of the underlying emotion. I quit blogging and contributing to GR when I got busy with my new trade. Now I am two months into starting my own service company with a lot of time on my hands. I wandered back to GR just to see what was going on. Not much, but it brought back memories. Memories of days when I was more focused on post-Iskcon existential confusion than the practicalities of life, which I am consumed by now.
I struggle still with self-doubt, and other defeating mental behaviors. I wish I could offer a revelation. A prize of some sort. A stamped ticket.
There does seem to be a sense the bumps are smoothed over a little. The journey is more a priority than the destination, as that is not clearly defined.
